My Favourite 

April

He is always so caring and loving. Raining kisses on me once i reached home. And giving a big hug everytime. I feel very loved. He got me Precious Moments Membership Card as a gift cos he knows that i love to collect it. What a sweet thought. He is having exams. A stressful time for him. I will be there for him whenever he needs me, staying by his side and be his pillar of strength....

One Year Anniversary gift 

March 11, 05

Our one year anniversary. He got me something special. A 0.21 carat diamond ring. So romantic and thoughtful. It is a pledge from him to me.. or is it the other way? A thought worth thinking.

February 14, 05

Valentine's Day. When out to have a good dinner. Guess wat he bought for me... something really unromantic.. but really really practical. Cos he heard me complaining for so long... I didn't realised that he was actually listening to my grumbling all the time. He got me a DVD player! Now, we can spend all our time at home watching movies. How romantic!

January

A new Year.... beginning of the Year. Time for a new start. The month passed sweetly. With lots of morning kisses. And night hugs everytime we see each other. He is always loving and shower me with TLC. Looking forward to Feb and March together.

Barang Barang Papa Chair for Christmas 

December 25, 2004

First Christmas together! A time for giving and receiving. I would have never expected it. He ordered something that i have always wanted. He realised that i loved the papa chair at barang barang. So he got it for me. The full set. Although it is rather big. Luckily my house has enough space for a single seater. It cost more than $300. It is rather extravagant for just a single seater chair. Wonder what will i do with it when i moved out of this house. Bet my room next time wont even accomodate this one....

Seafood feast 

December 06, 2004

December! Trip to bangkok for 4 days. It was just like an immersion trip for scouts. We went to meet up with all his scouts friends over there. Even visited the Scouts HQ, Scouts Shop, and one of the local school on scouts day. All the cute little students were all dressed up in scouts and girl guides uniform. Very nice. They even took out their shoes when they go inside the class. Very personal touches in the classroom. We shop the whole day, went to the wholesale market to get my bags of slippers. Everynight, we eat seafood. A feast everynight. Then home sweet home back to Singapore. What an experience! Both of us spent 2.2k there.

November

Holidays again. We spent lots of time together, building up our trust and immersing in each other presence completely. Trust will never be given freely again. But yet, a certain part of me never hope that much anymore. Just taking a step as it goes. I no longer hope for forever, I just want to make the best out of it and create memories that is worth keeping even if we are not meant to be.

October

A busy month for both of us. Exams and exams. Busy period of the year. At least there is someting to look forward to in December.

Fixing a broken heart together again with loving hands. A heartfelt note from me to him on his birthday. 

September 09, 04

He did not expect anything special. But in my heart, it is still his day. SO i gave him a heartfelt letter jigsaw, got a piece of cake, a bunch of flowers and a gift for him. He was touched and got all emotional. No matter what he did, he still deserve at least a bit ounce of respect as a human beings who errs. All he wanted was just a chance to prove that he is sincere... and it is just that he did not handle his past relationship properly before getting involved with me.... Maybe i am gullible.. naive to believe. But i am still willing to take the chance...

The night where we spent the whole night playing monopoly. 

September

I found out that he was lying all these months. And I wonder why. Found that he had been unfaithful and the lies that he told was so convincing. Funny thing was that i didn't feel that hurt or betrayed. It was just... expected. She came over and we had a long chat during the night. She loved him and wanted him back. She went through abortion for him and lots of other things. Guess she loved him so much that she begged me to leave him. But I feel that it is not a choice we both had. He had to choose and then it is our turn to decide if we can still accept him back. So we had a confrontation with him. He made the choice. And she was devastated. Violent and sort of unreasonable .. but who can blamed her when she is the one who was being cheated. He came back and begged for forgiveness and cried. In my heart, I feel that i have already been through so much.. it doesn't hurt to give another a chance. It is like giving myself a chance to trust and love again. Although it took a lot of courage and pain to go through the period, i guess that it is worth the pain. Time will tell.... if it is worth it or not. Till then, take things easy and carry on as usual....

August

Time flies for this month. We spend every night together. Although he has his hostel, but he still comes home everynight to put me to bed and accompany me. But in the end, he had to rush to school in the morning, waking up at 6 plus to get ready for 8.30 lesson. Very tiring for him. He was always busy with his school work. Prefer to stay in hostel to study at times and no phone call from him during that time. I really did trusted him all the time. Cos i see no reason for any dishonesty in our relationship. I was so wrong.

July

School starts for both of us. Busy as usual with our own workload. My Birthday falls on this month. He planned the itinery. We went to Esplanade for our dinner. Candlelight with a very good view of the high rise buildings. Lights lighting up the place, breeze on our face, love in the air. Romantic. Got a precious moment gift from him with the caption ' Together we can move mountains'. Took a walk by the Esplanade. So sweet of him to plan for it.

June

Holidays at last. Thought of actually spending lots of time together.. but guess my own family comes first. Spending most of my time with Raphael and of course my parents. The time that he had with me was limited. So he spent it most on his own family i assumed. And he got his results. He crossed over to the degree program. All our plans need to change for the next half a year as he is not getting paid. He applied for hostel as it is nearer and more convenient for him. I supported his decision. Guess it was a wrong move in being practical at times.

Loving Moments 

Cosy Moments 

May

We went to Sentosa with our colleagues. I asked a professional photographer along. What prompts me to do that. I thought that since this kind of attachment won't last long.. might as well create memories to last. He had already create some cracks in my own relationship so i thought it would be wise to move on and get over it. But that day proves to be fatal. My partner found out about it and left without a word. And i guess he felt that he should be responsible and told me a lie that last for months ... He told me that he was no longer with his partner too. How convenient and what correct timing! I didn't think much about it. As we have already compromised on honesty. How wrong I was to think that way!

April Sports Day

I fell in love on Sports Day. We were busy doing one's duty. By the time we reach home at 2pm. We were totally shack out.. tired but hungry. I went and took a rest. He cooked. But i guess i was too tired to wake up to eat. I woke up at about 4 plus and he was sitting on the single seater sofa doing my beads. I went back to sleep on the couch. The next time round i woke up, he was sleeping in a very awkward position on the single seater. I was surprised to see the food on the table untouched. In the end, i realise that he didn't want to eat without me. And he slept with me in the living room cos he wants to be beside me when i wake up. THAT'S it.

March to April

Time flies ... and he slowly move in with me gradually. Although both of us know that each other has a partner elsewhere, we came to compromise that there should be no strings attach but there must be honesty inbetween us. Guess it is wrong to assume that honesty will come from a no string attachment.

March 12, 2004

We made plans to go for drinking session in the night. But his stuff ended late so he offered to come up for drinks. And he realised what a bad drinker i am. The next day both of us need to be in school early, so i naturally offered a bed for him. So he stayed for the night...

March 11, 2004

I was sitting at the computer table when he came over and offer me a lollipop. He was holding on to a big tupperware. So i asked if i could choose another. So i chose a nutritious bar and said that that would be my dinner for the night. He sounded surprised and offered to treat me for dinner. Well of course, i agreed so in the end we went to Yoshinoya. During the course of meal, i learnt more about him. And manage to get him to agree to bring me to grapevine. But he needs to go home with me and wait for me to get change. So he came over... and waited. Then he brought me to grapevine and he went home.

February 14, 2004

He came into my school as a trainee. A guy who looks rather anti-social. That day he came to school wearing the same colour PE shirt as Shaun. So i just commented to Shaun that they must be gay lovers. He replied instead. But since i do not know him. I didn't acknowlege his reply. The next day, he was having lunch with Shaun and another senior teacher. I just join in and chat with Shaun, touching on the topic of guys nowadays who usually cannot live up to expectations. But guess wat, he came in to the conversation and gave his 2 cents worth of comments. And so, it became a two way conversation between both of us while Shaun and the senior teacher listen and watch. He was shocked, confused and speechless by the time the conversation was finished. Guess that is the first and last time i saw him without he having the last sentence.