September

I found out that he was lying all these months. And I wonder why. Found that he had been unfaithful and the lies that he told was so convincing. Funny thing was that i didn't feel that hurt or betrayed. It was just... expected. She came over and we had a long chat during the night. She loved him and wanted him back. She went through abortion for him and lots of other things. Guess she loved him so much that she begged me to leave him. But I feel that it is not a choice we both had. He had to choose and then it is our turn to decide if we can still accept him back. So we had a confrontation with him. He made the choice. And she was devastated. Violent and sort of unreasonable .. but who can blamed her when she is the one who was being cheated. He came back and begged for forgiveness and cried. In my heart, I feel that i have already been through so much.. it doesn't hurt to give another a chance. It is like giving myself a chance to trust and love again. Although it took a lot of courage and pain to go through the period, i guess that it is worth the pain. Time will tell.... if it is worth it or not. Till then, take things easy and carry on as usual....