July 29, 2005

I was yelling in the morning at my ex. The OCBC bank called to say that the renovation loan for two months has not been paid and we are liable to be sued. I was so angry. I did my share in putting in $340 per month and he should have done his share but he didn't. I told the bank that you can't sued me cos it is not my fault. The bank statements showed that i have been always punctual in my payment. It is his fault that it didn't have enough so don't sued me. Then the guy said that the bank will actually sued both and not one. Kaoz.... When i called him, he just said that he knows what i am calling for and please don't start yelling at him.... guess some things never changed. He can predict my actions ... towards him when things are not done and it implicate me. Sigh... a man has to be responsible towards his wife, and ease her of their financial burdens when come to joint accounts and has to spare a thought for the wife. But it seems that he has always been pulling me into his debts and getting me broke ever since i was married to him. Even when we are separated, i still can't get out of the habit feeling disappointed in him and get so affected by his financial status and his priorities in life. I must learn to relax and tell myself not to care anymore ... cos i am out of his life and i chose it this way and am happier this way. Sigh......

Was feeling so sick again in the morning. Darling was also feverish. But in the end, we still need to go out and get food and take medicine. So we went to IRAS to settle my income tax, realised that my ex had already filed for child relief in year 2000 so i got to file for 5% working mum child relief and courses relief...... after that went home to get dvd for his cousin's friend then headed down to kovan to have Sushi. Sigh... two sickos having buffet and sniffing, sneezing, feverish sitting there... feeling sick. In the end, both of us went back home immediately and concussed on the bed.. till now. He has to cancel tuition. Both of us are really sick sick sick.... guess the disease keep on passing on to each other....told him to stop kissing me liao... so in the end, for the whole of today.. hands off each other.. cos easily irritated and head throbbing with pain.

Oh no... my assignment is due... and it is still not done. I have problems concentrating on the 365. I can't handle it. Stress level very high.. hey friend, can lend me a hand over here with 365? The other partner of mine is also having fever the whole week and he also has not done it yet.. I am at my wits end.... HELP FRIEND......