It Is Not Normal To Be Straight... It Is Just Common

This will be my last personal posting for this blog. There is no reason to continue anymore. Tears fell like rain today. Even in class, the tears just came. Pupils asked for the reason that I cried.... family is all i said. Called his mother and asked for his whereabouts on Sat. All i got was confirmation of lies... and it seems that he has never mentioned anything about me at all... not like what he has said. The mother didn't even know i existed. Went back home after my tuition, he was packing. Watched finished my show and went out. I can't bear to watch him leave... pain... is all i felt. Walking in the rain ... the sky is crying with me for the pain that i feel. God, please take away my pain, numb my pain. Called my ex and chatted with him. Why is he always the one who predicts the outcome of my bf correctly? Why is he always the one who watched out for me? Reached home drenched ... Thomas called and checked if i was alright cos he saw me walking in the rain. Colleagues cared... that's good. I do not know what else to blog already... no happiness anymore... forgot that i have not had dinner yet... the house look so empty now without him, his presence and his things... can't sleep... think i am going to start packing the house again... habitual.

9.45am - I know what i've done was wrong. I will not say anymore in my defence nor attempt to lessen my crime. I admit i have done wrong and only beg to seek your forgiveness. I will accept all punishment you mete out... so long as you're appeased. But i state again, nothing ever took place. I would never dream of doing anything to hurt you. You mean the world to me. I love you deeply.

10.29am - My greatest folly here was not updating you... I'm sorry.

17.00pm - Den if up to me can i rent a room from you then? I'll pay 420. I'll sleep on the sofa.

23.21pm - I'm very sorry for my actions. Truly. But I know talk is cheap and you're not willing to give me a chance to action. All i wanna state is that i've never done you wrong. I've loved no one more else than you. If you ever need me i'll be there for you. You will always be my one and now aamazing dear.

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Anonymous shoots...: Hi my Dear Xiaoping

Do look on the positive side of things, as I always say, look forward and think of the bright future and never cry or feel bad on the unhappy past, The past is not = to the future.

Spend more time with Raphel and I belive you can be a great mum who can mould his future and make him someone outstanding in life.

Lyon is the past, lets not care what happened, lets not bother if it did or did not happen, but think and plan for the bright future ahead.

Trust in the Lord, This is the test, but the future will be bright, U know me the best, I have been thru so much, but Y do u see me so happi always rite:-)

Change your state, SMILE as what U always do, take a deep breadth and be happi, focus on your goals and your son.

Start Taking Responsibility for How You Feel! You will then Have the Power to Put Yourself in the Most Empowering Emotional States.
If you are upset, you are choosing to be upset. If you are excited, you are choosing to be excited. Remember, no one can affect how you feel unless you allow them to. The moment you realize this, you can choose to feel differently.
Successful individuals choose to feel empowered and positive even in the most dire of circumstances. That is how they feel constantly motivated to improve their situation. So how do we apply it in your situation here, well, you are a good GF, so if your BF does not treasure u, then its his lost, you can look for a better guy outside. Since Sec sch, you have no shortage of guys, everyone queue for u, Rite, haa haa.

Cheer UP, set your goals, FOCUS ON YOUR GOALS, and work towards it.

Trust in the Lord in all you do, Cast all your troubles and worries on his shoulders and he shall vindicate the path for you.

Take care always, with Luv, from your siao friend Aaron; 30/8/05 01:56
Anonymous shoots...: Goals in life, well, very few pple have set their goals in life, but you are the very few pple in life who have set very clear goals in lide, and this is very good.

You want, A Car of your Own
A House of your Own, A Rolex Watch and Six digits number in your Bank Account, these are very good goals, work towards it and believe you can do it. I know you can do it and achieve it.The problem with most people is they do not know what they want specifically in life. Well, many people who have clear goals may still not be driven towards their goals because they may know what they want but they don’t know why they want it. They don’t feel passionate enough to move single-mindedly towards their goals. And they end up frustrated instead. Our Life is like a Space Shuttle, When u set
a clear goal, U are setting the coordinates or the direction you
are moving towards. Like the Moon or Mars, for example. But what propels your shuttle is the fuel.
Unless U have the fuel, your shuttle is never going to reach
your goal. The fuel I am talking about is your life values! The
positive as well as negative emotions you value most highly.
You have to find out what your hot buttons are. These buttons when pushed will ignite that fire, that burning desire to go for it.; 30/8/05 02:30

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