Sep 25, 2005

She woke me up in the morning at 730am. And managed to get me out of bed and fetch Raphael. It proves to be a worthwhile trip. Fetched Raphael back to Seng Kang and spent my time playing computer games and snakes and ladders with him teaching him how to count. He came and fetched baby at 1230pm. Baby cried.. and said he don't want to go back. I told him to call me.. he said don't want. That sentence broke my heart.

He came back at 130pm. I feel like i am losing my love for him. After one day with her, i feel more attached to her than him. Sigh. He was so quiet when i told him that. He has no control over my feelings... it is up to me to make our relationship work. Where did my feelings go to? Can love be so easily replaced?

Slept in the afternoon. Supposedly to study but in the end, nope.. didn't do it. And i have 3 papers. I managed to clear up some of my unwanted and not worn clothes. The tubes, spaggetti tops and stuffs i bought from Thailand and have not been worn yet. I gave it to Nancy. Although i like the clothes... but i just can't fit inside it. I realised that i can't fit into free size clothings liao. It is usually a super tight fit till i can't breathe....
Got ready for the wedding dinner. Meeting Yuling at 7pm at Tanjong Pagar MRT station. She was late for half an hour. We went there. It was a super major gathering of who's who. Needed to take attendance at Capital Tower before you can enter a life... go to the second level and walk abit and get into another level... 52 stories.. fantastic view of the night.The first level was traditional round tables.. but the second story mainly catered to us sec school friends... was different. Long tables all the way. A lot of catching up with the rest of the people there. Idle chat, get contacts, keep up to date who is married with how many kids. Wah.... troublesome... need to remember.

Saw Dom there.... at first, i didn't know how to react. It took me quite a while to look him in the eye and said Hi. We started chatting.. I can't help but to disturb Irvin everytime. I just can't helped it... instinctive.. hehe. A lot of gossip among the girls.. of course...the 3 of us.

After the whole session, Dom sent me home by cab although it was a super long way.. and detour to his home. An apology was made after 10 years and was accepted. It meant a lot to both of us i guess... as we still remembered it till today. It sort of mould us into the person we are now ... memory etched... but healing can begin now... as forgiveness is there. When i got home, guess the tears fell.... waited for this moment where the pain and hurt can just come out in tears. Felt much better in years ... and can put the memory behind me and start to trust again....