Dec 28, 2005

Meeting in school from 9am to 1pm. Of course, it never ends on time.. he he. Lunch was provided. Saw Cheng Wai in school too...Called baby... and he keeps on slamming my phone.... he kept on asking which mommy and my mother in law... answered.. the seng kang mommy.. i was so pissed. As an adult and she is condoning her son actions ... and baby's way of calling the kiddo... come on. He has only one mother and that is me... no way it would be her cos that BB didn't give birth to him so what right has she got. Anyway, all thanks to the idiot's brain washing.... all i can do is to wait for baby to grow up.... it doesn't matter what he says or does...as long as i love him.... he will come to realise it one day..... Came back home immediately after school to rest... slept.... went dinner with dear at Sakae Sushi. I love dear .....

Received an email... forwarded it to person involved. And received a reply. Tears rolled down. Guess i still can't handle it .... Dear was pissed and angry that i still have not gotten over it yet after one and a half year. But he still leaves the decision to me. Cos it my history. What else can i do? What is the point in meeting? It still doesn't change things.... I guess he is still worried of me swaying... anyway, he said that if i want to sway..... i can and will still go back if the green signal is there for me and he can't stop me. But will i do that? I really wonder.... If i really meet up, then does it mean that i will have to watch my back more.... Do i want to take the risk in seeing her again? Getting all emotional..... thinking of my last phone call to her... my tears fell while i was on the phone with her... would i cried if i see her again? Or would my leo pride dis allow it?
This time round, it is her first call in seeing me again after she walked out of my life.... should i or should i not?