Dreams and Frustration

Had nightmare again. During one of the days that i had Raphael, he clinged on to me all the way and don't want to let go when he came and bring him back. Crying that he doesn't want to go back. Re-enact the scene of many times last time.. till sometimes Jerome get so pissed that he drove off in anger. And Raphael got to be dragged out of the car by mother in law and lock inside the gate.... watching me leaving him everytime. Was it a painful last time, everyweek go through the heart wrenching moments of him don't want to go home to that family. But now, it comes back to haunt me that why didn't i just take care and control of him... so that he will not subject to this kind of brain washing now.

Remembering what that idiot said about his life...He was being brought up in a family where dad is always not around, and granny brain washed and said so many negative things against his mother till he hates his mother thoroughly, and he having to watch other of his cousins having the things that he can't have, swimming, piano lessons etc. And he said he doesn't want his son to grow up in that environment.

Excuse me! An idiot will always be an idiot. He is doing exactly what he say not to. Not having the biological mother around the time, brain washed the son against the biological mother and not able to provide for the kid piano lessons, swimming, speech theraphy. Loser!

And one more thing, he wants to take up PPO against us???? HUH??? on what grounds???? His lawyer said that her client will take up PPO against us if we don't retract our PPO.... HUH??? Was that a threat i heard???? Or a bargain??? Either way this shows that he is guilty.... SUCH A LOSER!