Mar 24, 2006

Went to work earlier cos got SHINE workshop.. Sigh. After work, took a cab down to see Raphael. This time round, he let my son come out. He gave permission for Raphael to come out. By telling him that I am here and tell him to wear his slippers and talk to me. The dog is inside as usual. We chatted for a while. Showed him all the pictures. He kept on asking me where were the pictures taken. We showed him the porridge that we brought. He looked longingly and smell the porridge. Then he looked back at the house. The idiot chose to sit at the table where he is in view of what is going on outside. Raphael said don't want and ran back. Played with my handphone. He called my mommy handphone and they chatted on the phone even though she is standing in full view from him. It was heart warming at that point of time. He has been brain washed again. Now, he has been taught not to answer any questions that we asked. So as not to prevent him from saying the wrong things. Maybe the idiot is trying to prolong the divorce just to have sufficient time to fully trained Raphael into knowing what to say or what not to say. When probed further into some questions... he ran back. I guess he needs to ask for the answers.

He was standing in view of us when i saw someone roughly pulled him by the arm into the area that is blocked by the pillar. Is that how my son should be treated? Maybe he is so used to it that he didnt know that it is rough.

After that, he don't want to come out. Kept on closing the sliding door. Heard the dog talking and then the idiot talking. Must be brain washing. Son did not come out... but we kept on waiting, calling for him to come out. Son was really rude.. to tell us to keep quiet cos he is busy. Busy with wat? The dog is purposely taking up our time with him.

Of the whole time, that idiot stood up once and look out of the window to check on raphael and another time the dog also look out. And the old woman is sitting at the chair by the sliding door like a watchdog.

I kept on calling for Raphael.... but he did not reply. I guess that idiot never give him permission to come out again. I called out to raphael that we are going back. Can he come out to say good bye? Can or cannot? Did daddy give you permission to come out? Ask daddy for permission. If he cannot come out, just tell us and we will go off.

You have to bear in mind that all the while, we can't hear the exact conversation inside the house. But can hear that somebody is talking and who. Now, that idiot raised his voice to be heard.... RAPHAEL, CAN YOU GO OUT AND TALK TO HER COS SHE THINKS THAT I DONT LET YOU OUT? AND SHE IS TALKING NONSENSE AGAIN. With that, Raphael came out. Permission granted.

Let's go back to the sentence that he said. SHE IS TALKING NONSENSE AGAIN. With this sentence, he is guilty of 2 points stated in the Family Court.
1. It is important that netiher parent verbally or physically attacks the other parent in front of their children.
2. children being made to believe one parent is good and the other is bad

That few minutes that Raphael came out was the most precious time once again. We talked in whispers. Tears fell like rain once i turn away from the gate. I see my long lost innocence of Raphael in that few precious minutes. Oh so precious. A kiss on his little hands.... a mother's mark of love for the time being till next week. Love you Raphael always.

After that, took a cab to cousin house at hougang as grandauntie from hongkong just touched down at around 4 plus in the afternoon. She is 92 years old and looks really fit. Spend some time with her. And then chatted with Simin for awhile. Then headed home.