Drama Drama
Went to SIM to study as usual.
Sigh she gave me drama drama. One hour plus of drama... to me it is like never ending drama. This is my exam period and she took up my studying time to drama. I was feeling so frustrated. I felt so trapped.... and this kind of feelings... is such a turn off. I can't handle it.
In the end, it spoilt my mood for studying... i gave up and went back earlier. Went to Hougang to have Hans for dinner and shopped around for a while to destress.
What is love? I do not know how to define love... but i do know what is not love. What she did today was not love.... drama during my exams... not love.... come down and look for me is not love.. it is miss......loving is not this way... it is definitely not my way. Messaging me in the middle of the whole night at 3am is not love, when knowing that i am having my exams the next day. That is NOT love. That is selfishness. And frankly speaking... besides saying i love you... i feel no love. I feel that she wants to possess me. She does not love me. She is just so lonely and looking for companion in exchange for a bit of love in her way. Sigh.... Does she bother what is going on in my life? No. She does not. She only bothers about her own feelings and whether if i can go out with her when she wants to... and the rest of the stuffs.... no. Not even my divorce..... not even my son.... nope... she didn't ask anything... she doesn't know a single stuff.... she doesn't bother...
Am i hurting her? I feel that i am not. Those are the facts. When a person can't face up to the facts.....and can't handle the facts... what to do? Deceive her all the way....? No i do not do that. I will not do that. I will say the facts... if people can't handle the facts... then they should rethink their decision and decide on what to do......
I hate drama. I am turn off by drama with no objectives.
Sigh she gave me drama drama. One hour plus of drama... to me it is like never ending drama. This is my exam period and she took up my studying time to drama. I was feeling so frustrated. I felt so trapped.... and this kind of feelings... is such a turn off. I can't handle it.
In the end, it spoilt my mood for studying... i gave up and went back earlier. Went to Hougang to have Hans for dinner and shopped around for a while to destress.
What is love? I do not know how to define love... but i do know what is not love. What she did today was not love.... drama during my exams... not love.... come down and look for me is not love.. it is miss......loving is not this way... it is definitely not my way. Messaging me in the middle of the whole night at 3am is not love, when knowing that i am having my exams the next day. That is NOT love. That is selfishness. And frankly speaking... besides saying i love you... i feel no love. I feel that she wants to possess me. She does not love me. She is just so lonely and looking for companion in exchange for a bit of love in her way. Sigh.... Does she bother what is going on in my life? No. She does not. She only bothers about her own feelings and whether if i can go out with her when she wants to... and the rest of the stuffs.... no. Not even my divorce..... not even my son.... nope... she didn't ask anything... she doesn't know a single stuff.... she doesn't bother...
Am i hurting her? I feel that i am not. Those are the facts. When a person can't face up to the facts.....and can't handle the facts... what to do? Deceive her all the way....? No i do not do that. I will not do that. I will say the facts... if people can't handle the facts... then they should rethink their decision and decide on what to do......
I hate drama. I am turn off by drama with no objectives.
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LionHeart roars at Tuesday, May 23, 2006
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There are only two tragedies in life: one is not getting what one wants, and the other is getting it. - Oscar Wilde
dont be a taker most of the time. learn how to give as well. dont always think someone selfish. and dont be too greedy in life. Caused you might lost good things which could happen in life..
For a 27-yr-old, you seem so immature and this despite having had one failed marriage and one son. Grow up girl!
Thank you. Still growing up... and getting older.
from what you wrote, doesn't it obvious, who is the selfish one in the whole situations?
One have only one love, the others have two. Every one should knows how to decide , if they wanna look into their heart.
When someday, you gonna lose the one whom you love the most. Regret will be no point. Maybe you just used to it with the word lose, and losing someone just nothing for you, eventhou the person could be the one whom you wanna love so dearly fr life.
when ppl miss someone means they have feeling for the person . The feeling is love and care.
So what is miss and what is love?
I think i will take the risk. If a person loves me that much... they should be able to take the extend of my selfishness. I am selfish.. and I love myself totally. So my actions of course will be for my own good with regards to my thinking. Thank you for your concern though.
wah! i think only someone stupid if wanna be together with someone selfish and only think of herself.
how much the person gonna be patient and love you, at least you must have bit effort to learn how to give and nt being selfish. Give and take!
how much the person gonna be patient and love you, at least you must have bit effort to learn how to give and nt being selfish. Give and take!
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