8 Sep 2006

He came over to pass me his IC so that we would not waste the Thai Express voucher as he does not have time to have it together. He asked for a set of earrings for his cousins.... and i gave him a set with necklace and earrings in a box. When he was asked... he said it is for his cousin... i ask which cousin.. he said er...er.. er.... i don't know wan lah...... but i shot him back.. you tell me which cousin la.. i have seen most of his cousins already.. in the end he said it was the 5 stalk of flowers ... the youngest one. I mean.. if i was the one.. i would have just said the name instead of just giving the name as in cousin.... i mean... it just put a seed of doubt in me. I was affected... was it really for his cousin's birthday or is it for another one of his girls... like the previous times... he got a set of jewellery from me claiming it is for his NIE friend... but in his ex blog .. i read that it was actually.. meant for another... and said that i did not know about it. Doubts.. distrust... but no prove... terrible feeling. Why do i still feel all these? When there is no longer any status.. and i have also no right to anything at all....

Must learn not to bother.. and move on totally. Waste my time and spoil my mood.