Comparison
I cried at night.. in the middle of the night... silent tears....
Little things that he did.. that matters
1) Give me a massage after i played mj.. knowing that my shoulder aches
2) Get ready new shampoo for me when it is used up. He will never ask nor tell me that it is used up and tell me to remember and go and get it.
3) Making sure that there is enough contact lens solution and toothpaste before it runs out.
4) Making the bed immediately after the washing the bedsheets
5) Never letting me sleep on thin mattress... knowing well that i can't take it.He would rather he sleep on it than let me sleep on it
6) Getting me a drink at night when i was coughing badly although i said no need. He will sit me up and feed me with the drink.
7) Turning the fan towards me when he realised that i was perspiring while i was sleeping
8) Pick up all the tissues on the floor in the morning
9) Clear unwanted dishes and cups around before he goes off
10) Empty the dustbins when it got filled up
11) Putting me to sleep and making sure i am comfortable when i have problems with my nose
12) Making sure that he is home before me everyday so that i need not come back to an empty house
I only come to appreciate all these little things ... all these actions of love.... only when he is gone.... now i am missing all his little gestures of love ... now then i know that those are gestures of love
Am i comparing? Or am i not getting used to the fact that he is no longer around? Or that there is no other who does the same things... everybody loves differently... have i gotten too used to his ways of loving that it is getting so difficult to see another love language...
Time will tell.. only time will tell....
Sometimes i wished that he hurt me badly enough for me to hate him.... so that i would not remember all his love languages... but yet i know... his love languages are stronger than any pain that he can inflict on me.... he has set the standards so high.. who can be compared?
Little things that he did.. that matters
1) Give me a massage after i played mj.. knowing that my shoulder aches
2) Get ready new shampoo for me when it is used up. He will never ask nor tell me that it is used up and tell me to remember and go and get it.
3) Making sure that there is enough contact lens solution and toothpaste before it runs out.
4) Making the bed immediately after the washing the bedsheets
5) Never letting me sleep on thin mattress... knowing well that i can't take it.He would rather he sleep on it than let me sleep on it
6) Getting me a drink at night when i was coughing badly although i said no need. He will sit me up and feed me with the drink.
7) Turning the fan towards me when he realised that i was perspiring while i was sleeping
8) Pick up all the tissues on the floor in the morning
9) Clear unwanted dishes and cups around before he goes off
10) Empty the dustbins when it got filled up
11) Putting me to sleep and making sure i am comfortable when i have problems with my nose
12) Making sure that he is home before me everyday so that i need not come back to an empty house
I only come to appreciate all these little things ... all these actions of love.... only when he is gone.... now i am missing all his little gestures of love ... now then i know that those are gestures of love
Am i comparing? Or am i not getting used to the fact that he is no longer around? Or that there is no other who does the same things... everybody loves differently... have i gotten too used to his ways of loving that it is getting so difficult to see another love language...
Time will tell.. only time will tell....
Sometimes i wished that he hurt me badly enough for me to hate him.... so that i would not remember all his love languages... but yet i know... his love languages are stronger than any pain that he can inflict on me.... he has set the standards so high.. who can be compared?
LionHeart roars at Saturday, September 09, 2006
1 comments
1 hunters:
it's ur nostalgic mind playing tricks on you
the person's no longer around and at tt point in time you felt tt you weren't getting what you want from the current partner, out of anger/disappointment you'll look back and compare
and at this points. usually the good points of ex-s come up
i don't know about you, but for my case. guilt plays a part too
so at the point that i felt that current gf is lacking, i would think.. 'my ex would have had this taken care of'
without the guilt present, i would have had reminded myself of the wrong she'd done and the reason in the first place why we split up.
but coz of the guilt, i then think... that it was all my fault.
if only things were properly documented.
then may be we'll be able to give fairer comparisons
until then. whatever comparisons we come up with will be one that's biased and clouded by momental emotions / moodswings
at least for my case tt is lah
then i can properly remember all the good and all the bad
all in all. whatever's in the past should stay in the past
that's why it's called the past
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