Enough is Enough

Rick yelled... WAKE UP! WAKE UP! You are in a lose lose situation....

It is time i wake up... no more hoping.... no more waiting

Cos it is torturous to be hanging there when there may not be even a IF

And the sentence he said was...
i am not his ideal type of wife to be...
I am not his future wife material at all....
so what the heck am I waiting for.... crumbs...???

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First I was afraid
I was petrified
Kept thinking I could never live
without you by my side
But I spent so many nights
thinking how you did me wrong
I grew strong
I learned how to carry on

weren't you the one who tried to hurt me with goodbye
you think I'd crumble
you think I'd lay down and die
Oh no, not I
I will survive
as long as i know how to love
I know I will stay alive
I've got all my life to live
I've got all my love to give
and I'll survive
I will survive
It took all the strength I had
not to fall apart
kept trying hard to mend
the pieces of my broken heart
and I spent oh so many nights
just feeling sorry for myself
I used to cry

Now I hold my head up high
and you see me
somebody new
I'm not that chained up little person
still in love with you
and so you felt like dropping in
and just expect me to be free
now I'm saving all my loving
for someone who's loving me

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Everytime I ask you .....

Is it love or lust?
You said both....

What do you want me to do when your words are pushing me away...
and your actions are pulling me close...?
You said sorry... i don't know.....

How long do you want me to wait?
You just smiled and didn't answer

Am i supposed to wait till you found someone new, kill my hope before i can move on?
You ignored my message....

Basically, you ignored everything question that has to do with us......

No more.... i don't want to have you dangling a carrot infont of me.....
I don't need a marriage cert.. i don't want a marriage cert... all i want is an answer to a us.
Or a closure to our 3 years together... make it a memory.... and let me create new ones with another.... do not let me hang on to the memories of our three years..and spend it alone with only my memories with me......


I just need someone to be there for me and love me the way i am.... and be commited in loving me the best way they can... and vice versa... is it so hard to fulfil.... ??

i just want a status and a certain level of commitment.... that's it