Something Heartfelt

I was buying shirts at Raoul with 3 of them when i chanced upon this last weekl. It brought back memories. 3 of them pulled my ears... tell me no no... don't even think about it. No more scout. That scout is bad nut... so no no.They dragged me away from it. Kept me busy till i forgot about it. But i didnt.... sigh... It cost $259. So expensive... It is beautiful, isnt it? Maybe i should just buy it for Dino or Les. They would have love it..... get it for Dino or Les is still better than him. I sent him a pic of it and told him the price. He did not reply. Not surprising...

Went to school after the PSLE marking.... heard a few things. Why would they want to tell me? Sigh.. ha ha.... He got posted to my school and he was on MC on 17 and 18. Then the office ppl were making comments... and laughter in the printing room was so loud that another came in and see what's the commotion about. No more feelings... numb to everything about him already.

Past Few Days

Guess wat!

Bump into him and BK at MOS main hall.
Since when did the both of them upgrade from coffee shop to MOS....
ha ha

My friends said that i was mad to even acknowledge him at all. They would have given him the cut direct and would not want to have anything to do with the person who hurt them bad.

But i didn't.

Managed to say hi and said never chio.... Too nice and too magnanimous of me i guess.
I have come to accept him for wat he is... a man with flaws, lies, deceptions, goals, practically all the bad traits that comes with man. Forgiveness... yes... i did it. I didn't feel any lost..there were no negative feelings nor love anymore. It has been replaced.. by.. oh that is just somebody i once loved deeply before.

Yet today, he looked through my friendster profile once again. I wonder why...
Why should he bother... he should be happy with his young rich girl.

Do i feel sad over whatever has happened... i guess not.

No regrets in my life.... i have given life my best shot.

A Decision

Today... i pressed the button delete from my computer. And everything... literally everything of his is erased. 3 years of memories erased. As for this blog... maybe.. maybe one day fine day.... i will just pressed delete blog also. But for now, let's leave it as it is as a learning point for me.