Sep 21, 2006 Words of Wisdom

closure is when important dates went by and you no longer feel anything that the person
who used to share those dates with you are no longer there is no longer there like
birthday
christmas
new year
our anniversary

That's a good thing.... cos i can never remember our anniversary date.

For 3 years, he is always the one who remembers and counts the days.. the months. Not me. It is always him reminding me.

Does it show something... i think so. It shows how much i value him.... i guess..... ok ok.... am i just trying to make myself feel better? or trying to rationalise it out myself? or trying to talk myself out as if i have never felt anything for him for these 3 years.. or just trying to reassure myself that i don't love him.. finding excuses.. maybe.

But i must admit that it is pure blindness and stupidity at times to keep on forgiving and he kept on pushing his limits... unconditional love?

ha ha... how unconditional is unconditional when the heart hurts so much with each lie.. that i would rather feel the physical pain than emotional pain.

Anyway, gotten over liao.. just want to be a bit whiny for a while more.

I better spend my time in loving someone else who has never hurt me before with lies....