Sep 21, 2006

Good things

He:
clears the rubbish
washes the clothes
folds the clothes
cooks for me
always home before me
brings water to me
washes the dishes
massages me
clears the tissues
buy me flowers
surprises me now and thenk
eeps me satisfied sexually
checks my work
goes holidays with me
packs my luggage
unpacks all my luggages
carries all my luggages
irons
clears my thoughts
does what i tell him to
cleans up the house



Bad things

He:
lies with his eyes wide open
lies with perfect and well plan storylines
was unfaithful
tries his luck with other girls through sms when i am not around
gives perfect excuses when he don't picks up the phone
has no time for me

Ok ok... enough already. I can't think of any already... i looked through my whole blog once through again. And i feel the hurt all over again. NO matter how good he was to me... the pain was still intense.

Let me show you one example:

His Handphone Messages on Aug 29, 2005

Happened to play with his phone and try to figure out how to use his phones. And guess what i found.

have i mentioned my birthdate to you before? actually i'm having dinner with my mom cos that as for your treat no need la. or how about your cooking perhaps? *evil grin*

My thoughts: Harmless Flirting? Evil grin? What is that... with ill intentions? or just wanna go up to the house on a pretext of having dinner.

when did i tell you? no lah i never say u evil. i'm referring to myself cos i wanted to put u in a spot by asking you to cook :)

My thoughts: Confirm flirting ... who in the right mind would ask a woman to cook for him?

Yup. now on my back to my rented place. can't go anywhere tonight cos broke so prob go back and do what you are doing :) enjoy your time with your sons

My thoughts: Rented? So when is my place his rented place? So if he has the money.. he will go. And DO WHAT YOU ARE DOING???? So what is she doing that he wanted to do? masturbating?

Ok. u come to my place with beer now i sayang you long long :)

My thoughts: Sayang?? That is indecent proposal!!!!

Wow. bring liquor loh. me no scared. yes i challenging u. anyway i have liquor here too. u can juz come over if you wan. my landlady wun be back tonight

My thoughts: Landlady.. so now i am the landlady.... since i am the landlady. He owes me $3360 from Jan onwards for his rent.... what else.. He has better move out .. since i am the landlady, he has not pay rent since Jan, so i am liable to throw him out of the house now.

She at her mom's place

What u mean? she always stay at her mom place on sat one lah

My thoughts: My house is a whore house is it? So how to trust? Maybe he has been bringing girls back every sat night when i was not aroung. No wonder he always ask if i am going back to seng kang on sat. Scared that i will go back and check??

Drink lor. u wanna come over?we can meet at compasspoint first if u r keen. She cfm wun be back one.

My thoughts: Yes. I confirm won't be home cos he message a few times and called to confirm with me. That is why he is so sure of it.

we meet at compasspoint? go buy tog lor. i got liquor. no worries.what time r we meeting?

My thoughts:
Come on. He has asked 4 times in regard to asking her to come over... that is a calculated move.
Confronted him. He kept on giving excuses. And say that it is harmless flirting. Anybody who read these will definitely know that there is intentions there. Anyway, he said that he got proved that he didn't meet up with her at all.. cos he was out with BK at night. I called BK, he said he fetched him after midnight and went back around 5am. This he never tell me... expecially when i messaged him all through the night. He told me that he slept at 12 plus.. woke up at 4 plus and toss around in bed till it was time to go for the event... what a big fat lie... if he can lie to me about BK .. what more could he lie about... anyway,his dinner with his mother ends at around 8 plus... so from 9 to 12 plus.. what was he doing?

Nobody can vouch for that. I give up. I didn't talked to him at all. Asked him to get out of my house but he remained. My heart has died. It is the same as Shae when she wanted to patch up. Although i loved her, but my heart has died. No longer want to go through the break and patch phrase again.

Too late. The heart is hardened. No longer want to go through the phrase of checking and feeling insecure. I deserve better. I can get better guys with more stability. Why do i need to go through all the unneccessary pain anymore.... Gee is correct in a way... there is only one outcome with him if i intend to be with him. I can see her point now. A leopard will never change its spots.