July 30, 2005

Was still not feeling too well in the morning. But still need to go for CDAC. Richard was nice to send me to fetch Raphael becos it is raining then send us to Bishan. No movies to watch with Raphael so in the end, we went and colour the castle. Wanted to do something with him. After that, we waited for darling to come. Bought a polo t shirt for darling and a bag for myself. After that, went to Sam's opening dance studio for a while. And then darling went to meet his friends while i headed down to harbor front to wait for irvin to fetch me and raphael in. Had dinner at Sunset Bay Costa cafe there. And then headed down to KM8 for drinks. Chat till one plus. Then Liang Chuan send us out to Sim Lim. We took a cab to alighted Raphael and then both of us headed home.....Darling lost his phone again. Let's hope Chris can find it.

She needs to stoop down to appear shorter.Norman's Gf Kerin.. i think the spelling is correct... haha.

Fanny and I. She is from Mexico and came here for intern.

Everybody is here. Darling helps us to take pictures. Oh no, i look pregnant here with my top and standing posture.

Irvin as the birthday boy gets special treatment for 5sec.

Irvin protests, Norman and his 8 years gf getting ready the shot glass.... 

The men in our group. Oops Shaun is missing. He is not here yet. And neither is darling

Only me and Yuling are sec school classmates. The rest are partners of our sec guys. Girls only pics

Norman's BMW

BMW Norman's Car

Irvin's New Mazda

The front view

The side view

The sunroof

The two doors 

The interior

Afternoon Going Ons

Went to Sam's opening ceremony at boat quay for the sensualjoy dance studio. There are lap dance, xotic dance, strip dance etc. Super interesting. Took a few photos inside. Interested to see who is Sam(below)? The picture of me and darling is taken by raphael.





Raphael did this on his own halfway. Then he got so tired ... and stopped. So i helped him to complete it.

July 29, 2005

I was yelling in the morning at my ex. The OCBC bank called to say that the renovation loan for two months has not been paid and we are liable to be sued. I was so angry. I did my share in putting in $340 per month and he should have done his share but he didn't. I told the bank that you can't sued me cos it is not my fault. The bank statements showed that i have been always punctual in my payment. It is his fault that it didn't have enough so don't sued me. Then the guy said that the bank will actually sued both and not one. Kaoz.... When i called him, he just said that he knows what i am calling for and please don't start yelling at him.... guess some things never changed. He can predict my actions ... towards him when things are not done and it implicate me. Sigh... a man has to be responsible towards his wife, and ease her of their financial burdens when come to joint accounts and has to spare a thought for the wife. But it seems that he has always been pulling me into his debts and getting me broke ever since i was married to him. Even when we are separated, i still can't get out of the habit feeling disappointed in him and get so affected by his financial status and his priorities in life. I must learn to relax and tell myself not to care anymore ... cos i am out of his life and i chose it this way and am happier this way. Sigh......

Was feeling so sick again in the morning. Darling was also feverish. But in the end, we still need to go out and get food and take medicine. So we went to IRAS to settle my income tax, realised that my ex had already filed for child relief in year 2000 so i got to file for 5% working mum child relief and courses relief...... after that went home to get dvd for his cousin's friend then headed down to kovan to have Sushi. Sigh... two sickos having buffet and sniffing, sneezing, feverish sitting there... feeling sick. In the end, both of us went back home immediately and concussed on the bed.. till now. He has to cancel tuition. Both of us are really sick sick sick.... guess the disease keep on passing on to each other....told him to stop kissing me liao... so in the end, for the whole of today.. hands off each other.. cos easily irritated and head throbbing with pain.

Oh no... my assignment is due... and it is still not done. I have problems concentrating on the 365. I can't handle it. Stress level very high.. hey friend, can lend me a hand over here with 365? The other partner of mine is also having fever the whole week and he also has not done it yet.. I am at my wits end.... HELP FRIEND......

Although both of us are so sick. He still finds time to take a walk with me at Kovan and buy me clothings that he sees that i am in loved with. So sweet. I prefer a guy who earns $300 and spends $200 on me than a guy who earns $3000 and spends $200 on me. Sigh... I am so thankful with God for giving me darling.

So caring!

Darling came back just to buy me dinner and prepared for me. And out he goes again for his appointment. In total, he only took less than 15 mins and he is out of the door again. I am so touched. Where to find such a guy with no car and travel by public transport to do all these things? Sigh... Feeling so loved.

July 28, 2005

Thursday. Feel so sick. Woke up in the morning and see the doctor. Had fever, flu, cough, throat infection ... sigh. But still need to go to school to present my sharing with the teachers on blogging. After that, headed straight home to bed. Took medicine. I feel so tired. Still have assignments to do.... sigh. Lots of work not done and due dates are coming.. i am dying from my work load.

Just realised that WeeLeng has quitted and Friday is her last day. I salute her courage to change job, make a difference in her life. Guess after 3 years in the teaching line, it is time for a change... do something different .... how i wish i have the courage..... but yet bills are here again. i can't afford to change job...

Just take a look at my little prince... i just love him so much.... 

Appetiser... hmmmm 

Yummy! Mexcan Food on a boat at Sentosa 

A celebration with Darling. My little prince was the one who took our picture. 

My birthday cake in school 

Birthday Wishes via SMS

1. Leslie - 23/7 - 21:50
2. Esmond - 25/7 - 23:43
3. Daddy - 26/7 - 00:18
4. Jerome - 26/7 - 01:58
5. Mommy - 26/7 - 07:04
6. Frisca - 26/7 - 09:18
7. Kassandra's Mommy - 26/7 - 11:30
8. Rick - 26/7 - 11:53
9. Clarence - 26/7 - 12:02
10. Ren - 26/7 - 16:29
11. Richard - 26/7 - 19:49
12. Lee Ying - 26/7- 23:47
13. Alton - 26/7 - 23:52
14. Edmund - 27/7 - 11:46
15. Sam - 27/7 - 21:55

Small Matter

To me, it was such a small matter that it is not even worth mentioning till after today. But he chose to blew his top and yelled at me at1 plus am in the morning and left the house.... came back at634am. Was awake all the while. Was actually waiting for him to be back. Raining heavily. Worried. But when he came back, i was angry for waiting. No matter how many sorry and whatever reasons he gave is futile. Cos i realised that i fear him when he raised his voice, afraid that he will throw something or hit me..... this kind of thoughts really pass through my mind. And i see some history of mine repeating. I have come to realise that i do not want this kind of relationship at all. I don't like to be yelled at ... i know what i don't want. Actually, a few more of this kind of episode is enough to make me give up on this relationship. Now, i fear his love... it is possessive, irrational, unreasonable and untolerable. I cannot imagine getting married into this kind of cycle.... so i guess this birthday really open up my eyes about darling. I can even lost the mood to celebrate. Just want to be with Prince to cut cake, that's it. Nothing else matter any more cos i am immune already....

Happy Birthday 2 Me!

Happy Birthday to Me! Happy Birthday to Me! Happy Birthday to Meeeee! Happy Birthday to Me! Darling got me this. So sweet of him. I got to look for the gift just now. He hid it ... so exciting. hmmm... i'm loving it

July 22, 2005

Darling went home last night. So i woke up at eleven plus. Wondering what to do. I went for facial at 12 to 230pm. Then Jane and her son came over to make beads and watch DVD together till around 5 plus. They went back to her mother's house. And i am left alone to do my assignment again. Decided to go out and fetch darling from work. Went down to Chinatown. Looked for Colin and had coffee with him. After that, went to Hot Pot to have buffet alone. It was such a joy to really enjoy my dinner at peace. No need to entertain friends at all. Just eat and wait. Darling knocked off at 10 plus. So we went back home together....

July 23, 2005

Today was a super hectic day. Had CDAC from 9am-1215pm. Had appointment to perm my eyelashes at 1pm-230pm. Rushed to fetch my prince at mother's place. Mother gave me an ang pao and a quilt blanket made by her for my birthday. So full of love. Then rushed down to taka with prince to attend the makeup workshop by Estee Lauder. Collected my LV coin purse and my SooKee bracelet. Was late going down to Cafe Cartel at Dhobby Ghaut. I was the last one. Had a great dinner. Do some shopping with all of them. Ex husband came and fetch son. And all of us went to Pauline's house to play mahjong till 12 plus. Darling came over to join us. And all of us went back by cab. What a long long day. Very Happy... going out with my colleagues.

So happy!

The lipstick template was a door gift for the makeup workshop. And the two way eyebrow and eyeliner powder is being exchange for the $50 voucher. And the Chomel hair clip $29, a luxury.


The handmake quilt blanket by my mother. Full of mother's love. Very big and comfy and of course warm.... Last year,she knitted me a white top. This year, a handmake quilt blanket. All with lots and lots of efforts, time, and heart in it. Mother is the best. I love MOMMY....

Outing