Handphone messages

30/8/05

17:11 - please forgive me. I really can't take it without you in my life. I'll do anything... I know i've hurt you bad but i really didn't do anything to betray you. Forgive me please. Unconditional love?

19:12 - You name it. I'll do it. I can't bear living on without you. I now know the significance of the term meaningless existance.

21:04 - But it was from there that i knew of her intentions. She is the ONLY person whom i said you were the landlady. Please, we've been thru so much turbulence together. Is our relationship doomed to fail cos of a misunderstanding?

21:20 - That's my fault. Lying to you my location on sat. But it was not with the intention of inviting her over. I was at your place to do work, prepare for the event on sunday. i missed your first sms so when the subsequent ones came alone i daren't answer for fear of being said uncaring. As for the "invitation"sms, i already explained myself. My only mistake from start to end was lying in order not to make you angry, and not to betray you.

21:28 - And i apologized for lying over my location. A small issue. I did not lie over my relationship with her. Pl forgive me. Let us weather this over. Pl?

21:48 - I'll do your bidding. Whatever you say goes. You're in control. please dear.I'm in such pain. I will not rebutt.

22:38 - After all that i've done for you. After all that we've been thru. Saying those words are easy. You choose to give it up. i really see no more meaning in life but yet i have to. You take care den. If you ever need me, i'll be there. That's my last word to you. My love then, now and forever.

22:40 - What makes some people dearest, is not just the happiness that you feel when you meet them, but its the pain you feel when you miss them. Forever with love. Bye.

22:46 - i am doing whatever i can at this point of time and all you reply is that you can't trust me. Watcan i do? i have the impression that you don't want to have anything to do with me. Can we still remain friends? I've asked myself that. It'll be too painful for me. To watch you consider other guys. Do i stand a chance? If i feel i do, i'll do whatever i can, even if it means start from scratch. But you just seemed to want to get away from me. I'm lost.

22:58 - i love you, as i always said, more than you can ever imagine possible, more than you can believe, more than you. That's why it pains me to even think of our relationship as a plutonic one. I see you not as a friend but as a confidente. I see not as a passing memory but as a future life. I see you not as a gal but as a wife.

23:05 - I've thought of waiting outside school, at your place for you and explain personally. But whenever i think of last night, how you ignored me and seemed disgusted with me? I felt so much pain... that you see me not as a loved one, but of a hated one. I see no point in carrying on with life but ... all my commitments... my mum, my family, my brothers.. my scouts. It's responsibility.. i can't take it.

23:08 - I'll do that. You'll always know my every move...every tot... i believe i've been doing that but i promise to do much more. Every where i go, you are my fiance... You'll be mrs lai to be....

23:34 - If not for my present status, i'd have proposed to you long ago... You know that. If not for your status i'd have started prep for our marriage


31/08/05

07:31 - Thank you so much for giving us another chance. You will see how true i am to you, i promise. Yr love

Aug 29, 2005

This will be my last personal posting for this blog. There is no reason to continue anymore. Tears fell like rain today. Even in class, the tears just came. Pupils asked for the reason that I cried.... family is all i said. Called his mother and asked for his whereabouts on Sat. All i got was confirmation of lies... and it seems that he has never mentioned anything about me at all... not like what he has said. The mother didn't even know i existed. Went back home after my tuition, he was packing. Watched finished my show and went out. I can't bear to watch him leave... pain... is all i felt. Walking in the rain ... the sky is crying with me for the pain that i feel. God, please take away my pain, numb my pain. Called my ex and chatted with him. Why is he always the one who predicts the outcome of my bf correctly? Why is he always the one who watched out for me? Reached home drenched ... Thomas called and checked if i was alright cos he saw me walking in the rain. Colleagues cared... that's good. I do not know what else to blog already... no happiness anymore... forgot that i have not had dinner yet... the house look so empty now without him, his presence and his things... can't sleep... think i am going to start packing the house again... habitual.


9.45am - I know what i've done was wrong. I will not say anymore in my defence nor attempt to lessen my crime. I admit i have done wrong and only beg to seek your forgiveness. I will accept all punishment you mete out... so long as you're appeased. But i state again, nothing ever took place. I would never dream of doing anything to hurt you. You mean the world to me. I love you deeply.

10.29am - My greatest folly here was not updating you... I'm sorry.

17.00pm - Den if up to me can i rent a room from you then? I'll pay 420. I'll sleep on the sofa.

23.21pm - I'm very sorry for my actions. Truly. But I know talk is cheap and you're not willing to give me a chance to action. All i wanna state is that i've never done you wrong. I've loved no one more else than you. If you ever need me i'll be there for you. You will always be my one and now aamazing dear.

His Handphone Messages

Happened to play with his phone and try to figure out how to use his phones. And guess what i found.

have i mentioned my birthdate to you before? actually i'm having dinner with my mom cos that as for your treat no need la. or how about your cooking perhaps? *evil grin*

Harmless Flirting? Evil grin? What is that... with ill intentions? or just wanna go up to the house on a pretext of having dinner.

when did i tell you? no lah i never say u evil. i'm referring to myself cos i wanted to put u in a spot by asking you to cook :)

Confirm flirting ... who in the right mind would ask a woman to cook for him?

Yup. now on my back to my rented place. can't go anywhere tonight cos broke so prob go back and do what you are doing :) enjoy your time with your sons

Rented? So when is my place his rented place? So if he has the money.. he will go. And DO WHAT YOU ARE DOING???? So what is she doing that he wanted to do? masturbating?

Ok. u come to my place with beer now i sayang you long long :)

Sayang?? That is indecent proposal!!!!

Wow. bring liquor loh. me no scared. yes i challenging u. anyway i have liquor here too. u can juz come over if you wan. my landlady wun be back tonight

Landlady.. so now i am the landlady.... since i am the landlady. He owes me $3360 from Jan onwards for his rent.... what else.. He has better move out .. since i am the landlady, he has not pay rent since Jan, so i am liable to throw him out of the house now.

She at her mom's place

What u mean? she always stay at her mom place on sat one lah

My house is a whore house is it? So how to trust? Maybe he has been bringing girls back every sat night when i was not aroung. No wonder he always ask if i am going back to seng kang on sat. Scared that i will go back and check??

Drink lor. u wanna come over?

we can meet at compasspoint first if u r keen. She cfm wun be back one.

Yes. I confirm won't be home cos he message a few times and called to confirm with me. That is why he is so sure of it.

we meet at compasspoint? go buy tog lor. i got liquor. no worries.

what time r we meeting?

Come on. He has asked 4 times in regard to asking her to come over... that is a calculated move.

Confronted him. He kept on giving excuses. And say that it is harmless flirting. Anybody who read these will definitely know that there is intentions there. Anyway, he said that he got proved that he didn't meet up with her at all.. cos he was out with BK at night. I called BK, he said he fetched him after midnight and went back around 5am. This he never tell me... expecially when i messaged him all through the night. He told me that he slept at 12 plus.. woke up at 4 plus and toss around in bed till it was time to go for the event... what a big fat lie... if he can lie to me about BK .. what more could he lie about... anyway,his dinner with his mother ends at around 8 plus... so from 9 to 12 plus.. what was he doing?

Nobody can vouch for that. I give up. I didn't talked to him at all. Asked him to get out of my house but he remained. My heart has died. It is the same as Shae when she wanted to patch up. Although i loved her, but my heart has died. No longer want to go through the break and patch phrase again.

Too late. The heart is hardened. No longer want to go through the phrase of checking and feeling insecure. I deserve better. I can get better guys with more stability. Why do i need to go through all the unneccessary pain anymore.... Gee is correct in a way... there is only one outcome with him if i intend to be with him. I can see her point now. A leopard will never change its spots.

Aug 28, 2005

Sunday, took breakfast with family and bring Raphael to CDAC to give tuition. Took over darling as he has a function event at Sentosa. Raphael was so sweet to wait for me. Luckily he has the gameboy with him. Saw Fauroni and had a chat with him. Then brought baby back to Seng Kang and let him do colouring online. Ex came and fetch him at 230pm. Darling got to be coax to get out of his afternoon nap ... did the only thing that can wake him up. Bathe and darling went out for his meeting and work. I changed and waited for Aaron to come and picked me up. Went to Chinatown to collect PC and went to bugis to shop. Aaron helped me to carry everything including my handbag. Sweet. Had pastamania and ice cream. Solid. Chatted. After that, I drove back to SK and he went back home. Darling came home... we had a huge quarrel .. Thunderstorms..

Aug 27, 2005

Saturday CDAC as usual. Went and fetch Raphael and he has not even taken his lunch when i have already specifically said that i will be there by 1245pm. What is the meaning? Know that i am taking cab there and still have not got him ready? Purposely is it? So in the end, brought the bowl and spoon out to bishan and went to Pastamania to finish it off before taking a train. Met up with Zhao wei to past him the answers to past year exam papers. Went to house downstairs beautician and pluck eyebrow and did my removal of moles there with my mother. After that, went for the 40th Bukit Timah RC dinner cum National Day celebration. Lots of security there. After that, went home. Sigh. Supposedly to go out with Aaron but his wife don't allow him to come out. So cannot meet up with the rest of our sec school friends liao. Raphael is so wide awake till i can't even go out. He wants to sleep with me, I waited from 1030pm to 12 plus in the morning, he still can't stops talking and telling me how awake he is... children... in the end, i gave up and went to remove my contacts and makeup. He got up and follow me to the toilet and waited outside, afraid that i will run off... so in the end, i resign to my fate of not going out on sat night, slept beside him while he chatters away, i slept before him i guess. Middle of the night,4 plus, switched on the air con for him cos he found it too hot. Woke me up at 8 plus.. sigh... so i made milk for him... and tried to fall asleep again ... but he insisted that i wake up. So i laze around.... so tired....

All the things that i bought at Bugis with Aaron. Bikini $15, Pink Baby doll $16,Sunglasses 2 for $12, CD $7,Peel off mango mask and eye serum $7.90 each, Nail Protectors $12.90, Blusher $3.90. All super good buys.... 

It was given to me by my ex bf when i was sixteen years old. Ten years already. Lots of sentimental value. My favourite Suzy Zoo characters... 

My favourite mug at my mother's place. It is my personal mug. Nobody can use it, not even by my son. 

All the guests of honour at the dinner 

Daddy asked to take a picture with me individually.  

Went to remove three moles... super painful. Like tattoo. 

The dinner that I went on Saturday night with my family and son. 

My Aglio Olio plate.. quite a big portion. 

It was so totally unglam and uncool. Fetched him at 1245pm and he has not even started his lunch. When i have already said that i am coming at 1230pm. What kind of time manangement does my ex's family have? Pissed me off. So in the end, brought the bowl and spoon out.. and ate it at Pastamania before we took train to my mother's house 

At Night

If you have read my post, then you should realise that darling has been home super late for the last few nights. Seem that he has something on everynight. Then where am i suppose to be? Waiting at home? Just now, he messaged to ask me if he can go and watch football later... can or not? Can i say no? I can't. If he wants to go badly and i forbade it, he will sulk at home and show me a black face. Or even worst, next time, he anticipated that i will say no, then he will give me another excuse and even resort to lying to me to get out of the house to watch soccer. It has become a habit of his to go out in the middle of the night either with BK or go for meetings, or meet some of his friends who has problems etc. Sometimes, I wonder if he is telling me the truth. Seems that all his friends need him everytime they are in trouble or stress.. which happens most of the time. By the time he comes back, i would have been in dreamland. So how to feel secure? It is so easy for him to be unfaithful. Trust.. what is trust?? The super thin line .... to cross. Everytime different friends loh. Hey come on, he has already said that he is not that close to his NIE friends... i am a bit wary when mentioning about NIE. Cos the last time round, he also use NIE friends for cover, cos i do not know them well enough to call them up and casually ask if he is with them .... I fell asleep before he comes home not because i feel secure.. it is because i have learnt to be 'bo chap' and leave things to fate... During the course of relationship with him, guess i have learnt to be numb to certain actions of his ... so that i won't be so bothered. I hate to behave like a mad gf that keeps on keeping tabs and being so strict with him. He will feel overwhelmed... and caged. To make sure he has his freedom, 'bo chap' is the word to use at times....

Aug 26, 2005

TGIF ... a mad rush to finish up everything. Marksheet, printing of the whole level of creative writing. Do up the pupils' profile and write comments, collate the marks. Wah.. i am going mad from the workload. And moreover stress over darling's matters. The teacher is really blur. Cannot trust her to get things done. The carnival is next week, and what she has promised, fell to pieces when it is not within her control. Sometimes, i wonder why some people promised things that are not within their control and now darling is going to take the rap for it. But for darling, i bet he can think up of something and save the day again. He has such high responsibility for being the chairperson for the NIE netball carnival. And his project presentation is this Monday. How sway can a person be when he is down on his luck? He is supposed to go filming this morning at montfort but unfortunately the teacher who is supposed to be film fainted on the way to school... therefore that result in work not done for darling. He rushed back home in the morning at 8am to catch me before i go to school... he is rather egoistic these few days, keep on asking me to do certain things that seem very MCP. AND that results in making me late for my centralised marking... sigh... Took a cab to school although it is so near. Helped darling to film a scenerio of his project work with me inside. So stress... but in the end, got it done during my free period. Gotta thanks Felicia for her help in using her class and her being the camera man... haha.... Still got SIM tonight... really got to take a cab down cos this is the last tutorial session. Hopefully the tutor gives some tips.... Pray pray pray

Aug 25, 2005

Morning went to school. Had breakfast with Dewen. He drove over since he was at Tampines. Had a long chat with him. Had to cut the session short because Pauline called me at 1115am and asked me why i wasn't at school yet when she had waited since 10am for me. Hmmm.. She didn't sound too good. So in the end, i did what a guy would do... to pacify an angry woman who has waited for me for more than an hour.. i got her a red rose... In the end, i still need to help her to do her manicure... Sigh... What to do! Sometimes, I feel like i am still thinking like a les. Sigh. Anyway, helped Siva to do her nails during recess and Limin too. The rest of the teachers need to book time slot to get it done. Haha. All my nail art and nail polish are in school for emergency purposes already. Time to pamper the teachers with my service.... went to SIM for lecture.. was late as usual. Got down on the wrong station.. so i ended up later in school. Happen to see his girl... But she didn't recognise me.

Had a talk with Zhaowei... What is wrong with teachers wearing a g-string or thongs?? It seems that he is very old fashion to find that wearing a g-string or a thongs is really too much for our profession!!!????!!!!!! It would be totally unglam and a total turn off if i wore body hugging pants with VPL. Kaoz. Anyway, he finds my dressing very nice... but not suitable for teaching. Guess it is time the public change their mindset about teachers dressing...

The lecture finished at 1030pm. So late.... I took a cab home. Luckily darling said that he is my ATM so can claim from him.... sigh... what more could i ask from him...so sweet. He went out with BK for supper again... cos BK just resigned.. seems to have some cock up over that. Looking at BK, i find that my job really provides a certain amount of stability. ... be thankful.

Cookies

One of my CDAC P5 student, Ester's mother made this. And she gave a packet to me. So sweet of her!

Aug 24, 2005

Marking of the Maths paper in the morning at 830am. Got to really drag darling up. Dozing off in class liao. Tonight still have CDAC. I am already so tired. Must get darling to give me a massage tonight. Full house this week. Thursday and Friday no off nights for me too... Got SIM. Then i guess i will have to fetch baby on Sat afternoon. No choice. I miss baby terribly. He shit in school the day before. And it was rather funny as he prefers to shit at home, so he tahan till he cannot take it and soiled himself. Haha. Poor baby. He must have felt terrible... torn between shitting and the story the teacher was telling.

Anyway, Darling has a new theory... it is not the duration or the accumulation that enables the sperm to shoot more and further. It is the lust and the sensual heights that enable it to produce more and shoot further... hmmm.. worth a thought.

Aug 23, 2005

Went to school at 830am for centralised marking. It was fast. Was very tired the whole day. After school, hitched a ride with Limin to Pasir Ris to meet up with Tony to discuss C++ programming. After that, saw a this fashion sale. Bought $46 worth of clothes. Super good deal. It is time to clear out my old stock liao. Otherwise, i don't have enough space to put. I have one whole house to myself and yet no place to put clothes already. Sigh. Was home before darling.... i really do miss him.

Bought 2 working dress and 1 tube jeans dress... at $10 each. Hurry up and laugh. It is such a good deal... so fitting and darling was salivating when he saw me wore it... hmmm 

So cheap. $7 each. And it is perfect. Same quality as those you get from Bugis or Far East Plaza. Bought it just outside Pasir Ris MRT station. 

How Romantic Are You?

GET A PIECE OF PAPER AND NUMBER IT 1-11 (NO CHEATING!!)
SEE YOUR RESULTS AT THE END OF THE TEST.

1. WHAT SHADE OF HAIR DO YOUHAVE?
a) Dark
b) Light

2. OUT ON A DATE WOULD YOU WANTTO:
a) Go to a party?
b) Go out to eat?

3. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE COLOROUT OF:
a) Baby-Pink
b) Yellow
c) Baby-Blued
d) Turquoise

4. PICK YOUR FAVOURITE HOBBY OUTOF:
a) Surfing
b) Skate-Boarding
c) Skiing

5. IF YOU COULD PICK A STORE OUTOF THEFOLLOWING, WHICH WOULD IT BE?
a) Louie Vuitton
b) coach
c) againt all odds

6. WHAT IS YOUR FAVOURITE PLACEOUT OFTHE FOLLOWING?
a) hawaii
b) London
c) florida

7. IN THE SUMMER WOULD YOURATHER GOTO:
a) The Beach?
b) Somewhere Cooler?

8. WHAT IS YOUR BIRTHDAY MONTH?
a) January
b) February
c) March
d) April
e) May
f) June
g) July
h) August
i) September
j) October
k) November
l) December

9. WOULD YOU RATHER:
a) Chill at home
b) Go out with friends

10. WHAT IS YOUR FAVOURITEINSTRUMENTOUT OF:
a) Guitar
b) Bass guitar
c) Drums
d) The Triangle


Check out the answers....

1.
a. dark= sexy [5points]
b. light = sweet [2 points]

2.
a. go to a party = playful [2 points]
b. go out to eat = romantic [5 points]

3.
a. baby-pink = cute [2]
b. yellow = loud [3]
c. baby-blue = cool [5]
d. turquoise = sexy [5]

4.
a. surfing = active [2]
b. skateboarding = determined [2]
c. skiing = daring [5]

5.
a. Louie Vuitton = tasteful [7]
b. coach = laid back [2]
c. againt all odds = stylish [5]

6.
a. hawaii = you like being aroundpeople [2]
b. London = You are quiet, and like thecold [2]
c. florida = You like to party! [5]

7.
a. beach = tan, likes the sun [5]
b. somewhere cooler = pale and original[2]

8.
a. January = popular [5]
b. February = lovely [2]
c. March = loud [2]
d. April = playful [5]
e. May = happy [5]
f. june = chills a lot [5]
g. July = smooth [2]
h. August = fun [5]
i. September = quiet [2]
j. October = out-going [2]
k. November = pimpin' it [5]
l. December = warm [2]

9.
a. home = quiet, romantic [5]
b. go out with friends =crazy [5]

10.
a. guitar = eye-catching [5]
b. bass-guitar = mellow [2]
c. Drums = loud [2]
d. Triangle = crazy [5]

11. This person will fall in love with you!SCORES!!!!
UP TO 17= LOUSY GET A LIFE MAN
18-20=OKEY
21-35 = Rather ROMANTIC
36+ = SUPER ROMANTIC... U ROCK !

Parental Love

My mom only had one eye. I hated her... she was such an embarressment... my mom ran a small shop at a flea market. She collected little weeds and such to sell... anything for themoney we needed.... she was such an embarressment. There was this one day during elementary school... it was field day, and my mom came. I was so embarrassed. how could she do this to me? I threw her a hateful look and ranout. The next day at school... "Your mom only has one eye?!?!" ..and they taunted me. I wished that my mom would just dissappear from this world so I said to my mom, "Mom.. why dont you have the other eye?! if you're only gonna make me a laughing stock, why dont you just die?!!!" my mom did not respond... Iguess i felt a little bad, but at the same time, it felt good to think that i had said what i'd wanted to say all this time... Maybe it was because mymom hadnt punished me, but i didnt think that i had hurt her feelings very badly.That night... I woke up, and went to the kitchen to get a glass of water. My mom was crying there, so quietly, as if she was afraid that she might wake me. I took a look at her, then turned away, because of the thing I had said to her earlier, there was something pinching at me in the corner of my heart. Even so, I hated my mother who was crying out of her one eye. so i told myself that i would grow up and become successful, cause I hated myone-eyed mom and our desperate poverty..Then I studied real hard. I left my mother and came to Seoul and studied,and got accepted in the Seoul University with all the confidence i had.Then, I got married. I bought a house of my own. Then i had kids, too... Now i'm living happily as a successful man. I like it here because it's a place that doesnt remind me of my mom. This happiness was getting bigger and bigger, when....What?! Who's this?! It was my mother...Still with her one eye.It felt as if the whole sky was falling apart on me. My little girl ran away, scared of my mom's eye, and i asked her,"Who are you?!" "I dont know you!!!" as if trying to make that real. I screamed at her," how dare you come to my house and scare my daughter!""GET OUT OF HERE! NOW!!!"And to this, my mother quietly answered, "oh, i'm so sorry. i may have gotten the wrong address," and she dissappeared out of sight.Thank goodness... she doesnt recognize me.. i was quite relieved. I told myself that i wasnt going to care, or think about this for the rest of my life. Then a wave of relief came upon me...One day, a letter regarding a school reunion came to my house. so, lying to my wife that i was going on a business trip, I went. After the reunion, i went down to the old shack, that i used to call a house...just out of curiosity. There, I found my mother fallen on the cold ground, but I did not shed a single tear. She had a piece of paper in her hand.... it was a letter to me. My son...I think my life has been long enough now..And... I wont visit Seoul anymore...But would it be too much to ask if I wanted you to come visit me once in a while?I miss you so much.. and I was so glad when I heard you were coming for the reunion.But i decided not to go to the school....For you...And i'm sorry that i only have one eye, and i was an embarressment for you.You see, when you were very little, you got into an accident, and lost your eye. as a mom, i couldntstand watching you having to grow up with only one eye... so i gave youmine... I was so proud of my son that was seeing a whole new world for me,in my place, with that eye. I was never upset at you for anything you did..the couple times that you were angry with me,.. I thought to myself, it's because he loves me..'My Son... Oh, My Son...

My RM65 boots and RM25.90 netted stockings  

Want to be herworld tester... just mail to them... 

Did a tried and tested paintbrush concealers for HERWORLD. Didn't know that i got the most expensive tester. Wah...  

Kwanpen... Diana's dad company. Didn't know that the brand is so expensive loh. Can go up to 10k leh.... 

Aug 22, 2005

What a day it is! Tiring... as usual. Going to Sim later for class again. Going to get the answers for the past year papers. Cannot don't go. A long way from home. Can't wait to see darling at home again.

Aug 21, 2005

CDAC today. Covering duties. Brought my son to school. He walked around the school and was being looked after by the cleaning lady while i gave tuition for one and a half hour. He said that he wants to study in my school... so sweet. But it is really difficult to fulfil this want of his. Met up with my parents at Chinatown to have brunch. Actually supposed to fetch baby back, but called his handphone and housephone also no answer. So in the end, i let my son follow my parents back. And i went home to meet darling. Darling knowing how much i wanted to go in JB to do my nails, he took leave and accompany me there. Most of the time he waited for me. Went to do rebonding and have a haircut and treatment for only RM170. Bought a pair of boots which reached up to the knee for only RM65 and a black netted stockings, all of darling choosing, his fantasy. Hmmmm..... Had a fantastic dinner as usual... and then we headed home at 1115pm. Went to Sembawang.... and BK sent us back. I got knocked out once i hit the bed while darling entertains BK. Snoring...ZZZZzzzzzzz

Flowers again on my toes....  

Take at a look of my nail art... flowers.... 

The total amount of food we both ordered. Wah... really a lot. But i love it. Luckily both of us love to eat... and don't mind these kind of over eating most of the time. 

A super nice picture together 

The nail shop at Holiday Plaza.... RM 55 for both. Plus nail art on feet and hands.. RM 36. Definitely a worth while service 

Being service by two manicurist after my rebonding. The fringe is so short that i can't stand it... haha. 

Aug 20, 2005

This picture was impromptu. Both of us didnt know that we are each makng funny faces till we saw the pictures...haha.



Saturday. CDAC as usual. Period. After that, headed down to mother's house to have lunch. Baby was waiting for me there. Played with him, and had an afternoon nap. Then brought baby back to seng kang and he stayed over. Darling had meeting at home. Actually thought of going to club momo but baby at home, so in the end, gave it a miss and spent the night with baby. Put baby to sleep and darling put me to sleep. I am so blessed.

Aug 19, 2005

Friday, last day of PSLE oral. Same routine. Reached school at 7am. Did duty till 10am. Then i went to the staff lounge to sleep. I slept till 1215pm till Felicia came and woke me up. All of us, as in Aliz and Pauline went to Felicia house to play mahjong till 1715pm. At 1400,she fetch me to fetch my little prince. In the end, my little prince was so good, he just stayed by my side and play with his toys while i played mahjong. After that, took a train to mother house. Baby fell asleep when we reached mother's place. I took dinner with parents and meet up with darling at 8 plus at Lakeside as he was at NIE having meeting. We went down to Bugis to shop. We got quite a fewb stuffs and of course, darling paid for my shopping, and i paid for his. I chose the clothings for him, a new pair of straight cut jeans and 2 shirts. I like guys to wear straight cut to reveal their nice legs than baggy ones which darling always wear. hmmm... he looks much much better with his straight cut. We walked to Little India and took a train home. AND we tried out the new stuff he bought yesterday. WOW! IT WAS AWESOME!

This Morning

Darling again never sleep. He was awake the whole night doing his stuff again. He woke me up at 530am with a gift. Hmm... The last time round, he was asking me what do i want which is about a few hundred dollars. I know he needs a new handphone. But he didn't get it for himself. He went and bought something which cost 300 plus for me... as a 1 1/2 year anniversary gift. Wow! This time round, i am not going to post up pictures of it. Cos you will be appalled. Anyway, a bit of hint. It is something that i have wanted for a long long time but i didn't want to get it in SG cos it is so expensive. I had one but it was spoilt. So now, he got one... for me... better... stronger.... more functions........shiok man.... I can't wait to try it out. I love ya darling. Thanks for the wonderful gift. Guess it will bring us to greater heights... to a world of sensual pleasure.... wink wink.

Aug 18, 2005

The day starts at 530am in the morning. Reached school at 700am and start doing all duties for PSLE oral. Luckily i am in discipline... so consider half duty till 1030am. The rest of the time can be inside the staff room and do my own things. My colleagues are coming over to my house to play mahjong at 3pm to 6pm. At last, pauline and I managed to find 2 new kakis to play. Both are new young chinese teachers in our school. Hmmm.. can't wait. After that, gotta rush to Tenah Merah for my tuition with my tutor for my TMA. Gosh, i can't believe at my age, i still need tuition ..... for my degree. This proves how difficult maths is at that level. Darling will be working till late... so i am going to go back slowly by public transport. I can't wait to see darling again tonight.

Thoughts

Something happened in school today. And i was left frustrated and disappointed.. not with students but with a colleague. Let me emphasize...COLLEAGUE. Now, i know that there must be a clear line between colleagues and friends... no need to be so nice to certain colleagues cos they are not so nice to help you out at all ... especially when they know that you are desperate and still leave you stranded there. In the end, i ended up bringing up her whole class into my form class doing revision for my class while her class sits there and read. Just imagine 60 pupils squeezed inside a classroom. Poor things. I mean there is no obligation to help..... but it is only for a period. And this shows the person's true self when come to difficulty.

I must blog this down. Let me remember this incident so that i will not be nice to help out next time. I have always assume that as colleagues we should help each other especially when we are in the same level. But i was so wrong.. so very wrong. Other incidents, also make me realise it but it did not happen to me so i didn't felt much about it. Just be a bit more wary about certain colleagues. But now, it happens to me .... i felt so let down. Guess i didn't know her that well to see this move of hers.. i have always had a good impression of her. But for today, guess my thinking and impression has changed. Sigh...

I had cramps on both my legs today. It as so terrible that each step i took was in pain. Luckily darling was there to massage my feet and hold me all the way.... Sweet.

Aug 17, 2005

The day started in a rush. Last night, darling asked me if i want to change my handphone to the motorola which i wanted. He wanted to buy for me. So sweet of him. I told him no and i do not need a new handphone. Then he asked if there is anything that i wanted that cost a few hundred dollars... hmmm... guess he must have extra money. He got his stipend again. Good for him. But i would rather he saved the money for special occasions or last minute getaway trips. In school, going to rush through all the past year paper and through the syllabus... and marking again. Tonight, will be going over to cousin's house to visit her. She just gave birth to a baby boy. Yippee! Then will see darling at home again. I just love staying with darling. He is such a sweet heart and a good husband to be.

Aug 16, 2005

Today is Jerome's birthday. Messaged him at 12am. Called him in the afternoon... and made his day by making him so pissed and frustrated. Haha. On purpose. I always do that to him. Surprised that he doesn't see a trend after so many years together. Woke up at 12 plus in the afternoon. My flu was so much better. Went to see a doctor and get medicine and medical cert. Went to CDAC punggol and read finished the harry potter book. Ate chicken rice there and took a bus down to SIM. Reached there around 330pm. Did my TMA, print out notes with James. Lecture. Luckily Kelvin came and he sent me home. Going to start revising on my past year exam papers ... better be early than be sorry.

Aug 15, 2005

Another tiring day for me. Sneezing and having flu the whole day is definitely not the kind of monday which i want. Darren came and fetch me to school. The whole day busy marking practice papers all the way. So tiring. And sick some more. Tonight still have CDAC till 10pm. Sigh. A long day before i could hit the sack.. Lord, give me strength for this period of time. My kids need me now.....

At Night

Had the sudden craving of having black forest cake at around 1030pm. Darling managed to get it back at 1115pm. Wow! What a guy! He went out with BK at around 1145pm to have coffee to talk about his family stuff. So i ended up being alone again. Ren called at around 1215am to ask if i am home. She came up and collected her gift. She likes it... seems that every year, i will be giving her a pillow everytime as a momento and to replace the old one. The stamp was a collectors item. hmmm.... Gave her a big hug and asked her to take care. She is still looking good... and I miss her terribly.

The black forest cake that darling got for me  

Post

Something came in the mail. A long awaited gift for ah ren. Her birthday gift. It took more than a month to get it when they actually promised by 2 weeks. The Singpost really has a problem with their services. I have actually thought of getting one for darling also. But they want the payment immediately... pictures... blah blah blah.... so troublesome. In the end, they made it so troublesome that i cancelled the order. Irritating service. It sucks. But nevertheless, hers came in already.. so i can feel less irritated... It is a set of stamps with her pics on it. I chose the best pic in her friendster.... wu sim liao. She should be thankful that i didn't choose one that has me and her on it. Otherwise her gf will definitely flip... and so will darling. Haha.